What do you wish your parents would’ve done more of for you/with you growing up?

I wish I was closer with my parents. I think it may be a generational clash, but we didn't always see eye to eye when I was growing up. My dad was so overprotective I could barely do anything. As a teenager we would always get into arguments. But we are a lot closer now that I'm older.

I've always admired the relationship between my friends and their mothers. They talk everyday and they tell each other everything. More like best friends. I wish I could be just as candid with my parents. I wish they had put me in sports as a kid, maybe I would be more athletic or at least learned how to swim. But I'm very grateful for how I was raised and no matter how often we talk my parents will ALWAYS have my back. They always support me and they taught me the value of hard work. They adore and love me. And that's all that matters.

Think about your close circle. What does it say about you? What do you provide each other?

Geez I seriously don't know where I would be without my close circle. God has placed some very special people in my life. My friends know just what to say when I need it and when I don't...LOL. We are on the same wave length. We support each other in every way. Whether it's advice, cooking a meal, borrowing clothes, a traveling partner, spooner, telling it like is…anything! I trust them with everything. They inspire me everyday. They push me to be better. They hold me accountable. They make me laugh. And in return I try provide the same for them. True and honest friends are hard to come by. So what does that say about me?? It means that I am truly blessed!

Write a good-bye letter to anything that has hurt you.

Dear Cheater,

You were such an asshole.  A fine asshole. But still an asshole nonetheless. But that's what most ladies like right? The charm. You made me realize how naive I was to believe every lie that came out of your mouth. Even when I had evidence I still chose not to believe my own eyes. I kept thinking what was wrong with me and what did she have that was so right? My first real heartache. I laid in the bed for weeks not wanting to do anything trying to figure out what happened. My friends would come to my room and try to get me to snap out of it. I've always been too forgiving so I blame myself for that. I eventually got over you and I realized that our relationship was superficial anyway. I was only attracted to the possibilities and the present had no chance.

In a perfect world you would…?

In a perfect world I would…

-stop blaming myself for things that happen that are out of my control

-be wealthy

-be working my dream job and building my own empire

-know how to swim and overcome my fear of drowning

-have a Golden Retriever

-not have 48,390 unread email messages

-not have any debt

-compromise my own happiness for the sake of others

-be with the love of my life

-not be the queen of anxiety






What are your dreams? How are you positioning yourself to make them become your reality?


I dream of becoming an entrepreneur. I want to start a non-profit and I want to empower and uplift women in the community on a daily basis.

I dream of ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't live without each other love. Is there any other way to love?

I dream that one day I'll have a beach house. Even though I can't swim I've always loved being near the water.

I know these will come true. I'm speaking it all into existence.

How?

I've been working on a business plan and getting much needed advice from those currently in the industry.

I will continue to love hard. I will love fearlessly.

Now this beach house…I will get it. Just watch.

What areas of your personality, background, physical appearance are you struggling to accept?

Physically...

I've become very comfortable with my body. But I wasn't always like that. When I was growing up I used to hate my pointy nose and my overbite. I hated being called the skinny girl. All of my friends were growing big boobs and curvy behinds. My older cousins were comparing their bra sizes and I'm wondering when will my body bloom into a voluptuous woman? I soon realized that I didn't want my body to always be the focus of someone's affection. As much as I would love to gain more weight and develop a curvy figure, I know that I am beautiful just the way I am, and if they couldn't see it then I didn't need them anyway. Beauty and confidence starts within.

Personality…

It is difficult to accept that I can't do it all. I can't make everyone happy. I can't make every event as much as I want to support. And be ok with it.  I want to be there for everyone. But not everyone deserves all of my energy all of the time. Life will go on if I miss something. Sometimes I can be too nice to people just to keep things at peace. I avoid confrontation. I want to be in control (as much I hate to admit it.) The unknown can be a little scary. So I attempt to try to plan what I can. I've planned everything out in my head. So each day I try to just take life as it comes with patience, and accept the beautiful surprises, the good, the bad, the fun, the scary, and the moments that take my breath away.

Courage

The lies you tell yourself hurt the most so do not sacrifice your destiny to make someone else emotionally happy. Accept that they are who they are and you are who you are. Be completely honest with yourself, and never allow desperation for a dream make you settle on a path that God has not destined for you. We easily become comfortable living in medicority because it takes courage to live a phenomenal life. You are the determining factor of your own happiness. Be strong and courageous.

Who are you?

Who are you?

I don't think I've been asked this question before, and I'm not exactly sure how to answer it, but I will definitely do my best.

Here we go…

I am a beautiful intelligent black woman living in the DC suburbs (sounds cliche but I'm sticking with it) where it's nice and safe because living in the city might possibly drive me crazy. I'm from a very rural, country VA town and this is the happy medium for me. I live across from a middle school, next door to the fire department, and the hospital is less than a mile away. That's pretty safe, right? Oh and I have anxiety and I'm a bit of a hypochondriac. I'm super OCD about particular things like unlocked doors and any little symptom makes my heart race. I suffer from migraines, and I've just grown used to them. I know I shouldn't worry myself so much. I've prayed about it, meditated, and did a little therapy. But I'm more comfortable now talking about my own issues than I used to be. I'm used to being the friend that holds it together when everyone else is going through a storm in their life. I like to take care of the people in my life. I am a nurturer. But I've realized that I've spent too much time trying to please everyone so lately I've been doing whatever the fuck I want.

Oh and I like to plan. I'm the planner. I like planning themed gatherings. But I also enjoy spontaneity too, however; I'm not jumping from a plane.

I'm a lover. I love pretty hard. I love bacon. Anything with pork actually. Turkey is good and all, but it ain't pork.

I'm usually the quiet one out of the group. Not because I don't like to talk but it may take a second to warm up to you or maybe you aren't talking about anything that interests me. I'm usually the observer, which can come across as anti-social I suppose. So I am definitely an introvert but don't confuse this with shy or reserved. I am neither. Am I public speaker? No. But I love engaging conversations and experiencing new things or ideas. So I've been trying to come across as more outgoing when I'm out with a big group. It's a growing process.

I love music and I love to travel. Both have healing powers. There's nothing like listening to a great song or hearing your favorite performer sing your favorite lyrics right in front of you. You can just feel it in your soul. Ever since I was young I knew the world had so much to offer beyond the backcountry roads. The people, the food, the beaches…everything. Escaping from the everyday nuances gives me the chance to rejuvenate and explore.

Hmm…

I'm still figuring everything out. Like what my next job will be or if I'll be in the DC area long term, or when I will really open my non-profit, or when I will really start taking photography more seriously. I recently joined a church so I guess I've planted myself in the community already. But I'd definitely be open to opportunities in another city. But right now I'm working on building a stronger spiritual relationship with the Most High.

So yeah that's me…I'm still learning myself. So as I learn I will share it with you.

More to come.